F's Day, Garage sales and struggling!

Well surgery went well and I'm feeling much better than I did last week but my belly is still sore. We didn't really realize or I guess stop to think how Phoebe would react to me being gone for 5 hours and then coming home drugged up and dazed out just to go to bed and not spend the day with me at all. Thank God for the plastic door locks that you put over the door handles so kids can't open them!!! She screamed and cried when I went to bed after I got home. She just didn't understand that she couldn't lay in there on the bed with me and jump on it and have fun. I felt really bad for her and it made it pretty hard on Denzil but he managed and made it through this week. He's taking tomorrow off too though because my doctors appt is tomorrow. He said he could take another week off and after today I may ask him too. I was feeling really good and I thought back to 100%. So today I wore normal clothes (My incision is right under my belly button where most of my pants button) and that was a big mistake. It started hurting half way through church and so I'm obviously not back to 100% yet.
We had a good Father's Day. It was a good sermon about what Wives can do to be better wives and then came home fed the kiddos and then left hoping that they would both take their afternoon naps in the car before we went to a late lunch with my Dad, Grandpa and Aunt & Uncle at 3. Eliott slept the whole time but Phoebe fell asleep at 2:55! Of course, that's the way she does it!! So she only got about a 10 min nap but she was ok, surprisingly.
We also had a neighborhood garage sale on Saturday that my mom came over and helped me out with. Denzil went and played paintball for the first time with people from work and had a blast! We made $90 though and may have made $200 more with our tv. A couple said they'd buy it if we still had it on Monday when he got paid but we'll see.
Man oh man, I'm really struggling with this thing of being negative. Not necessarily out loud but more of the thinking and thoughts in my head. I've really got to work on being more positive and it's something I've got to start praying about daily. I pray about it but only when I had a bad day. If anyone has any suggestions on books I could read to be more of a Godly positive person I would appreciate the suggestions. I read The Positive Wife but I've got to focus more on being a woman of God before I focus on being a positive wife. I mean it helped and maybe it would be good if I read it again but it talks about that you've got to have God as your #1 and not your husband and I think I struggle with that. It also talks about if you look to your husband for your happiness than God's not your #1 and that's where I do fail. If Denzil and I are fighting than I am really down and down with God too.
Well I also have some good news but it deserves it's own post...